Everyone has a certain part of their lives,
Where they truly wish they could just freeze time.
Whether it was three years ago,
today,
or still to come.
Whether it was just a moment,
a whole day,
or a whole year.
Everyone has a time in their life,
when they wish everything would just stop.
The world would stop turning,
and people would stop changing.
Because to them,
at that time,
everything was perfect.'
it's never easy to understand why
memories hold our hand, but people let go.
sometimes you just need to let loose and cry.
The world is full of goodbyes.
You probably meet a new one every day,
but that never makes it any easier.
♥ 12:58 PM
okay i think today's post is gonna be a long one.
but firstly...
pictures taken by yours truly.
went back to Ngee Ann Sec.
&& the first thing that came to my mind was..
what the heck am i doing back here for?
i don't know.
i thought most of Juliet would be back.
but only the usual few came.
silly memories playing back in my mind.
which was probably why i was less talkative.
wanted to take my cert and testi but heard only can take my cert.
so decided to not take it today.
my gawd.
it looks more like a construction site than to a school.
its beyond recognisable.
anyways..
took some pictures of my "Juniors"
(which i can hardly recognise)
sec 1's doing push-ups.
oohs...
ahhs...
sorry im a saddist.
just had to take another one.
You're such a bad liar,
you know that?
Your middle name is bullshit and I've heard it all before.
Just leave me alone this time.
And maybe;
some people weren't meant to stay in our lives forever.
Just passing through to teach us a lesson.
I'm friends with alot of guys.
I have girlfriends too but mostly guys
because girls will stab you in the back.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w45VmMyoppM
♥ 7:51 PM
Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody?
You don't want to smile,
& you don't want to fake being happy.
But at the same time,
you don't know exactly what is wrong either.
there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand.
if you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone.
people have stopped being comforting..
& being alone never was.
at least when your alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong
& there isn't anyone who wont take 'I don't no' for an answer.
You feel the way you do just BECAUSE.
You hope the feeling will pass soon &
that you will be able to be yourself again,
but until then all you can do is wait..
& i've fooled myself for a little while.
thinking everything is okay trying to hide it with a smile.
im trying to act like it's all a dream..
but everything starts to fade..
& this is all more real than it seems
yeah im tryin my hardest to keep everything okay,
but this is life,
& you don't always get your way.
friends try to prove your not a retarded psychopath,
best friends just share the retardedness with you.
♥ 9:26 PM
PE - SWIMMING.
damn damn weird going into the pool with so many of your own friends watching.
nervous you know.
scared drown somemore. :x
but after awhile...heck la.
HAHA!!
someone wore her swimsuit the opposite side.
zomg.
how old alr?
still don't know how to wear your own clothes properly.
BIG JOKE!
OFA, din't do anything but surf net cause forget to bring my stuff.
zzz.
signed up for BLAZE camp with nicole, boon teck, wen jin && andrea.
seems like ite has loads of camps and such.
so just sign up la.
LLA, BORING!
Michael Jackson.
what.the.hell.
nearly fell asleep.
thats all the trash i have for today.
off to have my dinner.
welcome to a world
where being yourself isn't good enough.
♥ 6:35 PM
I don't understand anymore.
I don't understand what I'm doing or why I'm doing it.
I don't understand where I'm going,
or even how I'm getting there.
I don't understand what exactly my life has become,
and how it all sped by me so fast.
I don't understand.
The optimist in me is fighting.
Trying to stay alive.
This is merely the beginning.
i've only lived a small part of my life.
But lately,
the pessimist that I'd always tried to overcome is winning.
It's ahead of everything else,
and I can hear its message as clear as day.
YOUR LIFE HAS NO DIRECTION.
I don't know where I'm going.
And i can't seem to control it.
I'm so much more than lost.
Or confused.
I'm close to hopeless.
Because I'm so longing for my childhood to come running back,
laughing and telling me I didn't miss it.
It's right here.
Right where it always was,
i just never got a chance to see it all.
I feel like I had to grow up faster than I ever should have.
How can I be sure that every day I've ever lived wasn't wasted?
I've looked so far to the future for so long,
I'm afraid I've missed out on what's here and now.
What I'll never get a chance to relive.
I have so many paths to choose from.
And I can only hope that I make the right decisions.
That I end up living happily ever after.
But what if everything I'm doing and have been doing has been one huge waste?
What if I've been so focused on getting as much done as I can,
that I ultimately reversed the action,
and set myself back further than where I began?
What is my life,
now?
What am I making it?
And how do I know it's right?
♥ 1:00 PM
the best things in life don't happen unless you take risks.
Risk yourself and throw your heart out onto the table.
be who you are and hope people accept you.
if they don't, too bad.
always be real, never fake.
smile when you're happy,
cry when you're sad ,
never hold your emotions inside.
let yourself risk getting hurt,
let yourself try something new .
follow your heart and do what you feel is right.
not what other people tell you to do .
life is a gamble, you never know what it'll bring.
live in the moment and don't dwell on the past.
find the good in everybody .
think positive ;do positive.
break the rules and take a chance of getting caught .
dance in the rain when everyone else is inside.
don't follow the crowd.
who cares if you fit in?
wear your emotions on your sleeve.
I'm so sick of immaturity,
of name calling,
of labels,
of gossip..
It doesn't make sense any more.
& I find myself being nice to people that I want to strangle.
♥ 11:24 PM
UPDATE UPDATE!!
-so many people have been telling me that. =.=
ITE...
im IN basketball.
lets all scream YAY!!
hur hur hur.
homeworks, projects..
everything's starting to pour in.
zomg.
anyways,
recently extremely tired from all the training.
leg/hand PAIN.
& did i mention that the school stair's can KILL!!
reach home just wanna fly into bed pronto!
but of cuz i can't. :/
lessons are really really really really slack.
teachers dun even care if you come late or early.
friends are....
urm how do i say?
okay...?
i might be going to taiwan for NYAA.
hopefully,
if i make it pass the interview :D
it's gunna be a toughie.
well, everythings going well so far.
I GUESS.
hmm..which reminds me,
the class advisor haven't pass us our prize.
(for the "amazing race")
thats all for now.
i miss 5c1.
i really do.
:/
it's messed up when people you know slowly fade away.
it's even more messed up when you realize that you've never noticed until now.
♥ 6:36 PM
